You know in life when things are going THAT good?  So good that you kind of don't want to tell people about it because you're afraid it will come off as bragging - or worse, that you might jinx it?  Jinx, by the way, is kind of a funny idea to me.  Like somehow admitting to the universe that you realize things are going really well and therefore the universe might remember that it hasn't given you shit to deal with in a long while and then it will all catch up to you in one sitting. Well, whatever, i feel like life is only 30% circumstance anyway- the rest is attitude.

Moral of the story is life really is THAT good right now. I am loving it and I am constantly in awe of how insanely lucky I am to be in my situation.  I agree that much of my situation I was born into, but you know, a lot of it - especially lately - I have created myself. I am proud of myself for that.

I started mentoring today.  This is silly, but I didn't really realize until today how big of a commitment this is. I decided to do this on a whim one night when I realized that it was probably the 8th night in a row that I was laying on my couch wasting time.  I wanted to volunteer and do something worthwhile - maybe better myself in the process. I googled volunteer opportunities and Denver Urban Scholars was on the list.  Not a very heroic story, but gut feelings late at night seem to really have a good (albeit life changing) effect on me. I am entering this girls life in a pretty serious way and I am going to get attached. I'm going to want to see this through and she's only in the 7th grade. It's exciting to have a real (respectable) reason to stay somewhere.  I realized that I haven't lived in the same house for more than 2 years since I was 18. Not that I could get too comfy where I am... I'm sure Ariel would like her basement back at some point, but maybe I'll actually want to stay in the area for a few years... for her and for a certain Him. He has only been in the picture for a few months, so perhaps a little soon to be including him in any long term plans, but I want to and thats way more than I can say for anyone else that I've dated in the past 6 years.

While I'm gloating, I'll just round it out by commenting on how my job is perfect for my current situation.  Funny how this was my last ditch effort for employment and it really is quite perfect for me in this moment. I love how life works out. And also how I am, surprisingly enough, really getting a long well with my entire family.  They are kind of my friend group right now (kinda lame, I know) but it's so nice to be near them and not have to walk on egg shells (as much).

I am really happy. I love my life.