2015

I've got a lot of work to do this year. 

Not only is this year probably going to be one of the biggest years of my life (getting married, buying a house, etc.), I have a lot of work to do on myself.

I am not pleased with who I've been this year. I have not been happy. I have been a bit bratty, spoiled and idealistic. I miss the person I was. I used to be free spirited, loving, kind, adventurous and optimistic. Somehow I've lost some of that and I spend too much time thinking about money and busy schedules and feeling overwhelmed by the future that I have no control over. 

So with this New Year I would like to take the opportunity to explore options to metamorphosize yet again. Get back to my roots in a way. Continue on this journey of becoming a version of myself that I am proud of. 

My lifestyle is such a big part of this and it is something I have gotten away from since moving to Boulder (ironically).  I THINK buying a house will help. I will have the space/yard/security/stability to finally do some of the more permanent ideas that I have. 

Training for a half marathon will help. Exercise is good for everything, but I often have trouble getting motivated. This looming over me should help.

Exercise creates endorphines which will hopefully help my happiness. I need to get my energy back, my motivation. I wonder if getting into a routine would help, but that is nearly impossible with my work schedule. This area is still up in the air. I'll work on this. 

At any rate, I am excited and relieved to be in a new year. 2014 was surprisingly difficult (purely internal struggles) but I feel like I can look at the new year with fresh eyes. 

Here's to 2015