today was so much better.  I woke up and felt like I belonged here, like I understood the rhythm and the people.  It helped that Subra left yesterday for 10 days and I feel like the negative energy left with him. I hope I can get settled and more confident in my surroundings by the time he gets back and then I can survive for a few more weeks.

I'm settled into a 9 month lease in Denver with Cahalen's friend Ariel, so I guess that's what's next.  Just have to wait on the job situation to pan out.

This morning I woke up early and went straight to the garden.  We spent the first few hours organizing and cleaning up.  That felt good.  The whole place feels a bit cluttered and my mind can't function very well in a disorganized space.  I then worked the rest of the morning tilling the soil of the lower bed to create 2 more rows for corn.  That was hard work - a full body work out.  Despite the sunscreen I still got sunburned, and it's blotchy so it hurts and it looks funny :(  I suppose that's inevitable when you're working in the desert.

Lunch today was lovely.  Brad made a delicious kitchari (Indian lentil dish) and a salad.  I hung out for a minute inside to digest and then attended Muna's class.  She's nuts, man.  I mean, she's great, but super nuts. She is so distractible that she will stop talking in the middle of a word and change topics completely.  So today she spoke on "the beginning", which was essentially the big bang theory.  And we spoke on making herbal baths and analyzing a radial pulse.  She is smart and has a lot to share, but not always the most effective ways of teaching it.  I'm just trying to listen and gain what I can, taking most things with a grain of salt.  I really enjoy the concepts of Ayurveda medicine and the other girls and I have been sitting together and discussing what we know and teaching each other.

After a while we wound up back in the garden.  I followed Muna around for a while, but I can only handle her for so long so I retreated down to the lower field to finish my corn rows. I was pretty beat and felt disgusting so I bathed and laid low for the rest of the evening.

I'm feeling so much better about this place today.  I hope this can continue for a while and maybe then I can make it to my goal of 1 month... one day at a time is all I can promise right now though.